Come Up Here And See

One thing that I have found out in the process of writing a blog and sharing my love for Jesus is that on any given topic my writing seems to reveal what is deep down inside of me that I did not even realize, and I am not liking it at all.

For example, when I wrote my post on “Complaining, Murmuring and Grumbling” the after effect could be compared to a deep volcano that erupted inside of me of complaining, murmuring, and grumbling. I remember being in shock and asking the Lord, “Where did all that come from? Gently the Holy Spirit answered me saying “Well Lisa you have prayed and asked, remembering praying is asking and I answer your prayers, you have asked Me to burn away the dross in your life.” Even as I write this, He brought back to my remembrance that I also wrote a post on God being the purifier meaning that He will remove harmful substances. I must remember and be grateful that we are in the process of sanctification which means being made holy and ungodliness must be dealt with.  

This hasn’t just happened with one writing but also when I wrote “Waiting, Waiting, Waiting”. Oh, my goodness, the impatience that was deep down inside of me or at least I thought was deep down inside screamed its way to the surface. I was in shock of how much junk came flowing out of that volcano. I found that it did not matter whatever topic I wrote about the after effect brought on some kind of eruption.

While biking one day and pondering this with the Holy Spirit, He said to me “Lisa as you study truth, the truth will the truth set you free.” Then He asked me “Lisa how free do you want to be?” Good question, do I want to learn to deal with what He reveals so that I grow and mature or do I just want to have head knowledge when nothing has affected my heart and I am found lacking in His sight. Wow, when you present it like that Lord I want to change. I want my heart cleaned.

• Matthew 23: 28 NKJV Even so you also outwardly appear righteous to men, but inside you are full of hypocrisy and lawlessness.

• John 8: 31-32 ICB So Jesus said to the Jews who believed in him, “If you continue to obey my teaching, you are truly my followers. ³² Then you will know the truth. And the truth will make you free.”

• Psalm 51:10 NKJV Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a steadfast spirit within me.

• Psalm 139: 23-24 NKJV Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my anxieties; ²⁴ And see if there is any wicked way in me And lead me in the way everlasting.

This has been a wild part of writing a blog about my love for Jesus, I did not expect that garbage would be brought to the surface of my life.  I do not like this and sometimes I just want to go away, hide and be alone, but the reality is that I will still be with myself, so that will not help. I need to ask the Lord for forgiveness and just say help Lord I am a mess. I also must ask my spouse who I spend the most time with for forgiveness and just humble myself, say I was wrong, impatient, complaining, whatever it was and say please forgive me, I am sorry.

God has a sense of humour. He says to me “Lisa you should put a scripture on humbling yourself in this post.” He directed me to is one that I have been praying almost daily for my country and He reminded me ‘look at the first couple of words, Lisa, that is you and this is what you need to do.” Wow Lord, thank you for revealing that scripture to me with fresh eyes and fresh heart and thank you for being patient with me.

• 2 Chronicles 7:14 NKJV if My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land.

Holy Spirit I pray for those who have found themselves in situations where it seems like an eruption of a volcano has gone on inside of them and myself, sometimes we know why it happens and others we do not, and we are in shock. Lord, I ask that You speak to every one of us of what it is about and bring courage to us to do what needs to be done. If it is asking for forgiveness, we would ask forgiveness, if it is to believe in a healing, we would believe and not worry. If it is for comfort because someone has just lost someone and all they want to do is scream or they cannot even breathe, please comfort them Holy Spirit and bring stability that they will trust You. Please speak to all of us in the night watches, that our dreams are about You, and speak to us all day long and I thank You for that and I thank You for fresh revelations every day. In Jesus name, Amen